Trusted Experience to Guide Your Journey
As with many birth workers, my journey began with the birth of my first child. I did very little preparation for that first birth and although I had hoped for a natural and peaceful birth, my experience was quite different and very challenging.
This was disappointing and I didn’t know where to go with it. I was able to find a local group that supported me in developing my natural parenting style and I also found a way to process my birth experience over time.
I started to question and discover what I was wanting in my evolving parenting experience and what I might wish for in future birth experiences.
I began reading many books. At first, it was only parenting books. Then I wanted something deeper.
At some point, I stumbled onto Jon Kabat Zinn’s book Wherever You Go There You Are. This was my introduction to mindfulness. I started to build the practice into my lifestyle.
My next two births were very different than my first but it was during the preparation for my third that I found myself incorporating my mindfulness practice.
My birth was akin to a ten-hour meditation. This experience was very meaningful for me. I had discovered resources for inner strength and resilience that I never knew I had.
Soon after my third child was born I decided I would like to pursue some part-time work as a nurse again. Though my background was in pediatric oncology I felt called to work with women during labor, birth and postpartum.
I volunteered at the Women’s Birth & Wellness Center in Chapel Hill and was eventually hired as a nurse there. Over the years I have worked in both in-and out-of-hospital settings mostly at the bedside watching and assisting hundreds of women bring their babies into the world.
I soon found that providing education and support was a love and a strength of mine and I leaned into that, bringing my mindfulness experience along with me. I weaved in the elements of mindful awareness through teaching breathing and grounding in the body for women in the throes of labor.
Even though I was able to share my practice with those mothers, they were my greatest teachers- providing examples of shining strength and immeasurable courage.
I began to develop an interest in teaching mindfulness skills prenatally. I searched for a way to bring my practice and my love of birth together in one singular curriculum.
This led me to Nancy Bardacke’s program, the one I now teach, Mindfulness-Based Childbirth and Parenting.
I have been studying with Nancy and her lead teachers since 2015 and teaching the course since 2017.
As I grew the skill of teaching MBCP I was also developing a steady presence and an ability to hold the space for mothers in the postpartum period through facilitating moms groups. Helping mothers find their own unique and authentic way on the journey of mothering became a passion of mine.
I now get to do what I love which is to guide and allow new parents to find their own unique way and transition with awareness through the sacred passage into parenthood.